I feel, I feel like people only talk to me out of charity. Like they are walking up to special needs to give them a high five. They give me fake smile,and avoid me most of the time.
My mother thinks I am anti social because I am a sociopath. I'm not. She thinks so and I creep her out. I feel like thats how I look to other people. One girl had told me that I looked like the kind of woman that would murder her husband.
I feel like I look like these things, but i know the truth. I have anxiety, Bad. I have depression, reallBad. I'm just socially awkward because I really didn't grow up with people.
I'm sure many people think they would not enjoy my presence. I'm sure I already make many people feel awkward. I'm a loving person though. I'm loyal. I'd give my life for anybody. I long to know, and to be known. Am I really that bad?